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As my fingertips grip the
tiny handholds, my climbing shoes search for purchase on a tiny protruding nubbin. My forearms ache, my fingers scream as I hold my core
tight and try to stick to the slightly overhanging face I’m scaling. I try to
use my left leg to push over to the handhold I need to grasp with my right
hand.
Before I even make the move,
I know it’s useless. I just don’t have the skill for this move. What am I doing here? Was this a bad idea? My fingers start to slip
and I fall…twelve inches onto the thick, padded mat in the climbing gym.
I sigh. I’m trying a GREEN
bouldering route, which is at the recreational, or easiest level. I didn’t make it past the first move. While
I’ve successfully climbed two routes already (although they may be called
problems. I’m not sure). One was just plain easy and the other took me several
attempts and it’s no sure thing I will be able to do it again.
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Not me, but an example of the lithe-like people in the gym and the moves they do. |
Around me in the “Bouldering
Cave,” a dozen lithe bodies take turns clinging to the walls, seeming to defy
gravity, easily working from one handhold to another. They are also at least a dozen years younger
than my thirty-eight years and I’m rarely accused of being lithe. I work to stave off
frustration as they make routes, far above my level, seem simple.
The thing is, I’m a
confident rock scrambler. I’m relatively athletic, have climbed mountains, made
rock climbing moves while looking between my legs at rocks a hundred feet
below. I’ve been roped up and climbed some rock pitches and belayed others as
well. But this bouldering is another
matter. I am a beginner, a Noob. I don’t
know the lingo. I don’t know the etiquette. I am sure everyone else knows I
have no real idea what I’m doing. I do
know; this is how my students feel when I ask them to try something new.
Earlier in the day was the
first day of Ultimate (Frisbee football to some) practice at my school. I told
the fifteen, eleven-to-thirteen year old boys:
That we all had different skills
levels, from beginner to skilled.
Everyone would
make mistakes and everyone needed to be able to move past it and try again
without feeling badly.
That skilled
people fail at a something and just try again.
Beginners fail
and sometimes never try again, but with good support they often do.
All that
mattered was that we tried hard and supported each other to keep trying and
getting better.
If we were not
having fun, we were not doing it right.
I look back at those initial
handholds on the wall in front of me. Right now, I do not have the required
skill, understanding of the first move, or strength to figure it out. I know that and IT IS frustrating. I pick up
and move to that green route I’ve only solved once this evening. I expect with practice, my body will figure out this new skill. For now, I work to believe that success means, try to get better and don't give up.
I put my hands on the first handhold, smile to make sure I'm having fun,
and try again.
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